My destiny is to travel a different road

Realization is the best! 

I got a new job. How I’m going to fit it into my schedule is going to be very interesting.

Two of my cousins got married this weekend. It was lovely. I want to find someone to share life with, but I would rather not lower my standards. At all. Hopefully there’s someone who feels the same. 

I think I’m switching my major, once I get the time to really go over everything and pray about what that entails. 

In a month I’ll be 20. Mixed feelings.

I want this next year of my life to count. Not just this year though, but every day. I never want to look back and regret that I didn’t do more, explore more and be more. 

And to wrap things up, realization really is the best. 

I am so melodramatic.

Hilars. 

Life is never simple.  

I’m trying to make wise decisions. But at the same time I crave happiness. There isn’t an easy choice right now and either way I play my cards I won’t and can’t fit everyone’s expectations. 

I always told myself I would never put money above happiness.

I also told myself I would always love who I wanted and be transparent to those I love. 

Well, my heart is twisted and my wallet is stingy, and all I want is some shadow to hide behind. 

In the silence, you’re the first on that I turn to.
You’re the first voice that I turned to.
In the absence of my own. 

I know better. 

So, I’m watching a video on how different health care systems in capitalist democracies compare to ours. Health care is so jacked up here.